A question of submission

I am often baffled by this question. How is it possible for some to lay down their lives in utter submission towards the will of God?

I know that many a time my heart is just taken by things that don't matter. 2 things really bother me. How did I get to this state and why am I just plain apathetic about it? I am supposed to care about my well being and the person that I am.

As a christian, your ultimate goal is to consciously lay down your own will and set your needs aside in pursuit of God's will. I've been listening a lot to Ravi Zacharias lately and here was one very interesting question he posed:

"How is it that the christians claim of such an infinite God that is powerful and yet there is so little change in His people?"

Have we done justice to the name of God? In Leviticus 20:22-26, God states that we are His people which have been separated from the unclean and that we should be Holy for He is holy. Does the servant emulate after his master? Sometimes I myself feel condemned that I am writing things like these because I have not practiced them.

I am surprised how God spends time to actually capture my attention. I don't know if you guys get this but there are times at the back of my head that I just heard the whispers going:"Hey, I've missed you today." or "Hey, where's that promise that you were gonna start your day with Me?" Its statements like these that sometimes prompt me to just wanna break down and cry. That God would actually take time to tell you all these things!!! I guess that's how David felt when he knew God thought of him that much (Psalms 139:17-18).

What I find even more amusing is that God keeps coming back! Regardless of how many times you've not answered. What kind of a God does that? Indeed God wants to know you. Put yourself in His shoes and face (literally) a world of denials from people. Those beings that You conceived and crafted with your hands have now turned against You. Calling You a fraud, a fake. Those that claim they believe in You have nothing but an idea of You and not knowing You for who You really are.

These certainly are tough issues to answer. And the journey of submission towards God is of even greater multitude. Though tired I must continue to believe because as Philippians 1:6 says "He who began a good work will finish it."