Its written in the book of Psalms, that the sacrifices of God are a "broken spirit and a contrite heart". The two hebrew words mentioned in context of a broken spirit and contrite heart are the words :Shabar and Dakah which bears rather almost the same meaning which is to be crushed or broken before the Lord.
According to those definitions, I find my spiritual life wanting. I am not broken in my sins and sometimes I relish in them. I find it odd that sometimes christians are called to be "salt and light of the world" We're supposed to be the ones changing things around, bringing light into darkness, yet sometimes I find that the darkest of hearts is in one's self.
You then question God. That there is this emotional depravity that God has created within you and made you prone to. Why is that? Why does He do this? I don't hope to offer an answer because I seek to find one myself. This is a massive search in one's spiritual life. Maybe I am just too thickheaded to seek Him myself. Relishing in my ability to solve things or to ignore them entirely
Sighs.......When did I become so arrogant or apathetic? Is this the spiritual death that is explained in James 2? That faith without works is dead and because my faith is not acted out through a life of righteousness and love?
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- Mere Christianity
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- Outliers (I want to read this)
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1 comment:
I do not know for sure what you are saying for it is far too deep for my understanding and though i can get bits and pieces and relate them to myself,the post is basically a story of you. So, i can say through experience, is that, a road in which you cannot shower unconditional love and devotion is never a road worth traveling.
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