Storms admist this season.

Ever get the feeling that you're helpless in a situation which demands your every attention but you can't really do anything about it?

Recently, a position to be the assistant director of my father's company was forced upon me. Some of you are probably going WOW and would jump at the opportunity. Unfortunately, its not as glamorous as it seems. I for one think that this position would demand a lot from me and thus not allow me to perform my duties as a assistant cell leader and student effectively.

I also desire to learn the true motivation behind my father's intentions on putting me in this position. I would certainly value the challenge if my father had phrased it in such a manner that he thought I was indeed mature enough to handle and decide the direction of his company however that wasn't the case. I was shouted upon and said that I was stupid, naive and idiotic to not see what my step mother (who by the way has been wayyyyyyyyy more accountable than my father in supplying my monthly allowance) was plotting against him and trying to sabotage my education fees if I failed to claim my position in this company.

Personally, I think this is a gambit for power that my dad is trying to pull. Using my position in the company to pull a 2-1 score against my step mother who also co-owns part of his company. It is a pathetic ploy which a child could see through in a mere second. Wisdom dictates that I should just stay out of this but when your family is involved how can you dodge a bullet like this. More importantly, I've had curses pronounced over me by my own father. Sometimes you really do wonder what kind of a father you have when he says such things.

I wonder is this a sign from God that I should start praying for him or that I should just leave him to the tormentors. Needless to say, I've very little respect for my father and his ways. Sometimes I even doubt the surety behind his profession of Christ as he has very little love for both his ex and current wife. I sometimes ask God what did I ever do to merit such a father. Its truly at times like this that one desires to ask the question:" What would Jesus do?"

Thoughts, comments and opinions are always welcome

New season, old friends

I guess this is almost the ending chapter of my university life. Hence the new season.

In 2 semesters, I'll be graduating already. Its good to know. I haven't blogged for the longest time and I myself wonder why haha. Part of me thinks its because blogs are rather narcissistic. Kinda thought I needed sometime to focus on others.

I've been met up with some friends to talk about working life and it seems to be really exciting unless you're doing a donkey job like telemarketing or survey interviewing. In general, working seems to inspire a sense of deeper independence in me. The thought of earning your own money is kinda invigorating.

I've met up with an old friend today. Turns out things have been kinda tough for her. She shared about some experiences with friends (specifically christians) who were hypocritical in the way they lived their lives. They imposed certain judgments upon her but when it came to their own lives there wasn't any condemnation just because they were christians.

Visibly, this seems rather unfair but the lesson I observed most from this is that this generation of christians need to take a stand for Christ. Our lifestyles are sometimes a mockery to pure Christian living. (I would like to use Romans 12 as a benchmark.) In Romans 12, it says to present your "bodies" as a living sacrifice to God. This doesn't mean conforming your "heart" to Jesus Christ just by professing it. Looking at the Greek text of Strong's Lexicon, (sorry for being technical or bible scholarly but I need to illustrate this point), the root word of "soma" or "bodies" is "sozo" which if outlined in biblical usage is to "to save from the evils which obstruct the reception of the Messianic deliverance". (View source http://www.blueletterbible.org/lang/lexicon/Lexicon.cfm?Strongs=G4982&t=KJV). To take this literally from a biblical perspective, are you saving yourself from all these evils that obstruct Jesus's deliverance over your life?

In Christianity, many talk about being in the permissive or perfect will of God. Being in the permissive will of God is tantamount to stretching the grace of God which will ultimately result in judgment. As Malachi 3:2 says "He will come as a refiner's fire". Think you can stand the wrath of God when it appears? I hate to think its just as mild as a lightning bolt from heaven. Just thoughts....