Remember your God.

"I will bear the indignation of the LORD,
Because I have sinned against Him, Until He pleads my case And executes justice for me.
He will bring me forth to the light; I will see His righteousness."
Mic 7:9

How long has it been since you heard a verse like this? Micah 7:9 states that a sinner owns up to his mistakes because he has sinned and allows God to execute justice for him.

This shows us not only the confidence of the believer in his Lord to deliver him from this peril, it also shows an owning up of his path of mistakes. I fall into the great trap of sometimes sinning and not apologizing for it as well. We all take things for granted sometimes and this takes a toll on ourselves and on the relationships we keep.

Don't take this the wrong way because discipline is not something that is bad. (I sorta think that the community of psychologists have made discipline an evil word.) As Hebrews 12:6 once said For the Lord disciplines the one he loves, and chastises every son whom he receives. Just like a fruit that needs pruning or gold that needs to be purified. Discipline and wrath is not necessarily hatred, rage or even abuse as proven here.

Hidden tears

Psalms 40
¹¹ Do not withhold Your tender mercies from me, O LORD;
Let Your lovingkindness and Your truth continually preserve me.
¹² For innumerable evils have surrounded me;
My iniquities have overtaken me, so that I am not able to look up;
They are more than the hairs of my head;
Therefore my heart fails me.
¹³ Be pleased, O LORD, to deliver me;
O LORD, make haste to help me!

Dear God,

What letters shall I write before You? When the innocent perish and rage grows triumphant. How my heart stings when I imagine the carnage unfolding. Am I to be like Job? Where has Your great promises of protection and safety faded to? Lord, how bitter now is this heart of mine? How bitter more will it become? God, why do You draw the innocent into this? Am I not much more a worthy victim? Lord, your servants cry and yet do you listen. Where's that mighty outstretched arm? Your promise of being a tower to the weak? My Lord, make haste and be not far from me. Be not far from me dear God.

The journey between the mind and the heart

After yum cha with Ax.....I thought about this (He's gonna claim credit for my epiphany hahaha)

Far away this journey lies,
From the mind to the heart,
Before what one knows safely lies,
Within one's heart and never part.

If only men did what they knew,
If only men saw the essence of truth they knew,
How this world perishes not for a lack of knowledge,
But a lack of application of that knowledge.

A life which seems so bleak and thin,
Now faded in smoke after the world takes a spin,
When what one knows is not what one does,
Behold the speed in which wisdom flees.

Yea, like stagnated water that flows away not,
And will soon breed chaos and death,
So shall it be if knowledge flows not,
From the mind to a heart which life beats forth.